SO I just realized I’m always tired now. I get enough sleep. I’m still tired. I even got my power hours last night…LOL.
My mom went to go get her citizenship thing, & now she’s FINALLY an official citizen, except it took her awhile, so I got a ride home from my lovely neighbors & shared secrets with Josephine in the back of the car..LOL. (: EXCEPT WHEN I GOT BACK, my mom hid the key in a nasty place with cobwebs and ants and dirt cuhs you can’t see it, and it was very nasty and it took me like ten minutes to finally suck up the courage to stick my hand under it, AND WHEN I DID
IT WASN’T EVEN THE RIGHT KEY, SO I SAT OUTSIDE AND WAITED FOR FORTY MINUTES TIL SHE CAME HOME…blaaaaah!
Well. I had fun at the Christians on Campus meeting…^____________^
to the bitch who asked you that stupid ass shit on your tumblr: lol, youre fucking hilarious. you call other people shit when you're a motherfucking pussy who hides on the internet....why the fuck dont you confront joy and ask why wont she stfu if its so annoying. she doesnt even cry in front of you, so you needa stop QQing and block her if shits annoying. and you needa stop bein a pussy and fucking lemme know wsup and msg me who you are, lil pussy ass bitch...lol
Arnold, you pottymouth. LOL IT’S CEW IT’S CEW THOUGH.
& seriously, you are the most straight up person I know. You serve shit straaaaaight up. YEY (=
HAHAHA I BELIEVE THIS IS DEFENDING IN YOUR VERY OWN WAY. It was very very thoughtful of you, so thaaaaanks ^__________^
HI YOU NASTY PESKY ANON. ^_____^ k, GTFO MY BESTFRIEND'S TUMBLR. seriously, what kind of person would ask a fucked up question like that?-_- she's hurt & sad & EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE (face it, joy) and no one asked you to show up on her tumblr to ask her a jerkface question like that. PLEASE, go get a life.. i don't think YOUUUUUU'VE been through what she's been through so stfu. GOD-_- people like you annoy the fuck out of me.
Fine, fine, I’m emotionally unstable, but only you’re allowed to call me that -_____-‘
"a jerkface question". Your defending skills are really really cute & I love you.
OKAY ANONYMOUS, DID YOU HEAR THAT?
Yes, it is indeed my best friend defending my honor.
Why do you keep on crying? Get over it seriously. People like you annoy the fuck out of me.
"People like you". People like me? People who get HURT? People who cry to let out their feelings? That’s called being human, thanks. We get hurt. Shit man, you must be like, the pissiest person on earth because absolutely everyone goes through a dark time. You can’t turn feelings on and off any more than people—YEAH, LIKE YOU—can be ignorant fucks who don’t know what they’re talking about.
And honestly, you’re too sweet for dropping by; there’s an unfollow button on the top right of my tumblr, see it?
You know how the time flies Only yesterday it was the time of our lives We were born and raised In a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days
Never mind, I’ll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you too "Don’t forget me", I beg. "I’ll remember", you said. Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.
Today at Alex’s house, Mrs. Tapang asked me if I had been crying, cuhs my face looked like it. …-_______-‘
I didn’t realize it was so apparent. So then I had to lie because if I said yes then she would most likely asked WHY, & then I’d think about WHY, and then I would start crying in front of Alex, her mom, her little cousin, and her dog.
So I’m sorry I had to lie to your wonderful wonderful mom, Alex.
I had temporary fun bonding with my Lesbian Lover & sharing stories on her bed & crying in her blankets out of self-pity.
sang loudly to Owl City, as well as the White Tie Affair, because we always sing Candles (Sick and Tired) when we’re together. But now I note the semi-relevance to my life as well
watched The Last Song while I squinted through the cuteness of all their kisses—hmph
had fun watching her text her babe while I sat there staring at my hands because . well, yeah
BAKED MORE COOKIES—THREE TRAYS FULL ! (=
I had lots & lots of fun, Alex. I CAN’T WAIT TO SEEE YOUR LOVELY MOMMA AGAIN!
Went home for an hour til I got picked up by Howard for some cousin bonding time, & we went out for ramen & I feel like I can never eat again. We even went to yogurtland after, even though I just kinda talked the whole time cuhs I was so full. I’ve never been to Ajisen before! IT WAS GREAT. :D I forgot what great family I had for a moment there too. It was great cousin-bonding and venting about my surface problems. As in the many annoyance of Child Development, and academics, and occasionally my mom that I dearly love. We talked alot about weddings & marriages & whatnot, CUHS HE’S GONNA GET MARRIED SOON TOO! ^_____^ yay, everyone’s in love
good for you
NOW I’M HOME, & well.
My mom told me that when I’m 18, she’s gonna take me to Korea.
Oh, for fun? Sounds great, Mom.
Nope, she wants to take me to Korea, cuhs that’s where she got her double-eyelid surgery. She told me that when she was my age, she looked ugly in pictures “too”. and after she cut her eyelid into a double, she got much better-looking. So according to her, once I get my eyelids cut all prettily, I’ll be so much more attractive. As for now, she’s just really doing wonders to my ego.
iirenechangg: you’re like part of our relationship iirenechangg: its like a semi threesome iirenechangg: okay nvm iirenechangg: that’s gross iirenechangg: but like yeaaah iirenechangg: LOLOLOLOLOL iirenechangg: noooooooo feeeeel bettah
eshhur said: ahahaha your mom is cute :D she’s got a great come hither look bahahha and i rike your hurr :) natural or dyed? lol i’m thinking of dying.. or smething eshhur said: Dude, I won’t even go on that. Just looking at it will scare me shitless.
HAHAHAHAH, HOW DO YOU THINK I FELT, ESTHER ? SO SCARED ! You know, if you go to the top, and try closing your eyes while the wind’s hitting your face, it’s actually not TOO bad. As long as you’re gripping that pole of course. Although a flesh and blood person woulda been WAY better. (=
AND OF COURSEEEE IT’S NOT NATURAL, SADLY. Mom for a hairstylist = when is my hair ever naturally colored ? D: & I know, my momma is where I get MY come hither looks from…(; LOLOL BUT I’M STILL PERFECTING MINE SO ISS ALL GOOD :D ! & why dye it? IT LOOKS GREAT THE WAY IT IS ! (=
He told me to not worry anymore. It made me wanna cry, because God knows my pain.
I’m going to try to do just that, but I know it’s not gonna be easy and I’m still gonna worry plenty before I can hand everything over to God. ): & I felt like crying so hard when Pastor Mark told me that…I seriously felt like he wasn’t the one speaking at all, but that it was God. He kept telling me that I was his daughter and that I shouldn’t worry anymore, and that I need to spend time with him in the mornings.
So I’ve decided I’m going to do my devotionals in the morning now. Maybe I can have a better outlook on school waking up with God’s word & reveling in it before leaving for school. HECK YEAAAH.
CAN YOU GUYS LIKE STOP BEING CUTE IN FRONT OF ME
Irene & Arnold were being cute today. So cute I started to cry and Arnold was like, “what the hell is your problem!?” and then I started to laugh and cry and they thought I was a crazy person. Well Irene already knew that cuhs she’s my best friend but I think I scared Arnold a little. LOL. Then they were being mean people and being all cutesy in front of me so I hung out with Caleb because he is a guy of little words & he was really really nice today! WHY IS HE SO MUCH NICER WITHOUT JOSHUA. I think that Joshua needs a douchebag jar sometimes. HONESTLY MAN.
Then Arnold prankcalled a someone on my phone and pretended to be me, and talked in a really really high-pitched voice and went “Can you help me? I’m drunk, I don’t know where I am! Help me!” OHMYGOD T________T & then he switched back to his normal voice & asked for “alcohol help” because I had “seven shots” and “was about to throw up” because I was at my “crazy party.” …we were sitting in the parking lot of Rowland Shopping Center, hugging each other from the cold. LOLOL.
Last Saturday, Irene told everybody at church that I was “emotionally unstable.” I protested alot, but right now I think she’s right. I kinda don’t know how to feel, LOL. I know that doesn’t make any sense, but after hysterically laughing and crying while Arnold and Irene stared at me in disbelief like “omg is she seriously crying cuhs we’re holding hands”, I have no idea.